When you say Nothing at all...

When you say nothing at all...its always the best policy..

When you ask for nothing at all...you will eventually get what you least expect??

Someone told me that I have changed from a sweet girl to a different one now.what's the cause of it??I dont know,I seriously dont know. All I know is I need to protect myself and only we,ourselves will not betray ourselves.

Someone keeps teaching me to be positive and look at things in a better and different angle.I tried..I really tried.But all these in exhange of short lived happiness.

30 years of my life have passed and I am still like a headless chicken,running around looking for a decent job.If you would to ask me what I missed most now...

I missed most waking up with snow falling outside my hotel room window in London,I missed eating my favourite spinach with mushroom after working out in Frankfurt,I missed taking trains in different parts of the cities,I missed shopping in Japan and looking out thru my office window,I missed seeing the alps and clouds.Almost a month since I clipped my wings.All in exchange is to be with you during Xmas and New Year.

I need to learn to be grateful as there many other people out in this world living in hunger and pain.I have lovely family and friends.What can I ask for more??!?!?

I will ask for nothing at all.Just looking at how Meibo chews her bone,its my greatest comfort.But no one understands how much peace she can bring me.We are still separated.Yes...ask for nothing...say out nothing...I am gonna be a super quiet girl from now on...S.I.L.E.N.C.E.

I am very grateful for the kiss I get every morning.

Time doesnt heal...

Time doesnt heal at all.Something big and drastic happened to me last Saturday.It kinda crushed me totally and to say that it doesnt affect me at all??i should be kidding myself if I ever say that.

Trust broken...Does it ever mend over time?I seriously hope so coz the thought of it keeps bothering me and lingering on my mind.When I am walking,sitting down alone,bathing,on the bus and even sitting down facing him having a meal together,it will flash across my mind.

Humans always wanna the truth,but can they eve able to handle the truth?I appreciate him telling me the truth but truth really hurts.I may not shed much tears and appear as everything seems alright now but deep down in my weak heart,i cant forget and forgive..so what's gonna be my next move???

I miss her so much,more than anyone or anything now.Time really crawls when my wings are clipped.Its Day 8 since and I managed to pass my course finally!!Thou I dont really get much support from anyone but I am really happie that I passed and awaiting for my license soon.Look down or disagree but its a decent job afterall

Tears just rolled down and how I wish I could be stronger.Think positive!!I am trying very hard but seems quite tough to do,huh???

Reaching home to see Meibo girl,my only comfort and silent loyal soulmate whom I tell my secrets to.Lets hope she doesnt have tick fever.

Marks the end...

Its 846am,London.Temperature is -1deg and snowing outside now.Looking out through my room window,this marks the end of my career...After 3.5 years,excluding the 1st employment,else I will have been this good company for a total of 8 years plus.Its a good company,I have learnt a lot.But guess its time for me to move on with life.

I am giving up something which I loved alot but I am sure I will gain something better in the future.Nobody can tell the future,nevertheless I should tink positive!!Look forward and be happie.This is a choice that I have made and I will stick with it once again.

I feel very fortunate that lao gong is supporting me and that assures me alot.Thanks dearri!!! =) Love ya!!!

Its still snowing now...So romantic... thou its bitterly cold... =) Its marks the end.. at my favourite station..at my 1st EU trip with lao gong..at a place whereby there are so many memories...musicals,shopping,museums,cobblestones,sunny blue skies with gloomy rainy clouds and 'mind the gap'...at a place i walked with my bestie.. >_<

I feel so lost now.. ..